I know you will agree with me that it is hard to reach consensus with certain individuals. They deliberately want to be difficult.

It is extremely disheartening when you find that nearly every body exhibits this attitude of self-importance that is pervasive and ubiquitous. Is it a sign of the end times?

If you exhibit humility and are trying to effect solutions to problems the right way by proffering appropriate communication with understanding, you are tagged a crass fool even by the laity, who has no idea at all on the topic put up for discussion.

I have finally come to the conclusion that it seems a disadvantage to be knowldgeable and try to share it; and when you want to even learn, you are disuaded, by being considered ineligible to participate in “obtaining this information of ours”. One will now tend to wonder whether the teaching one has had growing up, that it is better to communicate compassionately with understanding and reach consensus in nearly all activities, should be for the general good of the whole team or not?

How can I navigate this continual situation that I have to apologise numerous times for being different and extremely intelligent, at least to my own thinking?

Long term and a life time of isolation has encouraged me to perenially burn the mid night oil alone. I have done so many things in solitude for a long time that I cant give up this loneliness, in order to conform to individuals who want to senselessly go round in circles, just because I want company.

Good company cannot be gotten from bad people that resist change. I rather be alone, and navigate onwards.

I remember in the book of Genesis, when God looked at all he had done, He praised himself and said, “It is all good”. I will continue to trust in the Almighty, all the days of my life.